it's a rainy weekend again. i kinda don't like too much rain, it's spoiling my plans.

anyway, there's been a lot of good things ... and of course bad things going on. but i'd rather be thankful that i'm still breathing than complain and be sad.

my father got out of jail last saturday ... and our relationship got even worst. he now thinks that we totally don't care about him just because he's not a good dad.

i hope he'd learn his lesson and be more cautious driving. i think he beat the red light and hit someone. thankfully the kid is still alive.

i still love my dad. and it's okay if he doesn't love me back. i hope he reads this and know that i was about to visit him this week but then it's too late because he's already released at that time. i thought he'd be there for more than a day. and i'm so sorry i was busy and tired tryingto keep up with my two jobs. i hope you understand i need to work to make a living for the family. if you ever decide to come back home, it's fine so long as you promise to leave that woman.

i don't think you'd ever read this. you don't know how to use a computer. so there. i'm just thinking out loud, so loud that you won't hear anything from me. i'm hurting, yes. but i won't show you. i need to be strong. you're teaching me how to be strong and of course you're not aware of it. i'm still thankful you're my dad. i wouldn't be who i am today if not for you.

i'm having a weekend. a real one.

but i can't run because it's raining so i'll just stay home all day.

I love holidays and long weekends.

I and other batchmates will be on our third week of nesting, we need to undergo nesting for a month and after that is the verdict whether we'll go to production or not. Goodluck naman diba.

Training is fun, no pressure and no worries. All you  do is act like a sponge and absorb everything. I miss the jeopardy game when we had to cheer, dance and sing. And oh, the trainer forgot to give the prize for our team. Dang. She broke her promise.

I realized work can be less tiring if you have a love life in the work place. That person can motivate you. But I reached to point when I made him the only reason for going to the office. I almost forgot I was there to learn, to work and to be productive for the company.
 
I can't say I pushed him away, I just told him I'll support him whatever he decides. With him, I learned to face scarry thoughts and just let go. I feared he might go back to Seatte or somewhere else. Oh well, it was his decision to leave. God has a reason why He let that person resign, He knows I'm about to fall in love so deeply to a wrong person.

I liked him. What did I like about him? hmm... he's huggable. He makes me laugh with his crazy jokes and when he makes a funny face. I like tickling him when he's driving. I like it when he begs "No, please no I'm driving......" He's like a child, really.

We both tried to work out our relationship after his resignation, but I guess we're just not meant to be. I don't regret giving him a chance though. 

I missed him even though he deleted me on facebook.

I'm over him. This is going to be the last blog about him.

Three good looking guys are hitting on me, an American, a Fil-Am, and a Filipino. I'm not racist but I just notice something. Americans are straight forward and fast. The American guy asked me out for a beer. Beer? Why not tea? Haha. You'd always get a no if you don't research.

The Fil-Am gets obviously nervous when he tries to talk to me. I don't know, I just feel it whenever a guy is nervous. He made me smile when he tried speaking in "wala", it's Tagalog word for nothing.

The Filipino one, I don't know. One co-trainee just noticed he likes me. He's a dead kid, he does nothing.

I'm giving my heart a break. No dating of co workers until further notice, or until they do something noticeable.