Saturday, 31 October 2009

• weak weekend

  it's a rainy weekend again. i kinda don't like too much rain, it's spoiling my plans.

  anyway, there's been a lot of good things ... and of course bad things going on. but i'd rather be thankful that i'm still breathing than complain and be sad.

  my father got out of jail last saturday ... and our relationship got even worst. he now thinks that we totally don't care about him just because he's not a good dad.

  i hope he'd learn his lesson and be more cautious driving. i think he beat the red light and hit someone. thankfully the kid is still alive.

  i still love my dad. and it's okay if he doesn't love me back. i hope he reads this and know that i was about to visit him this week but then it's too late because he's already released at that time. i thought he'd be there for more than a day. and i'm so sorry i was busy and tired tryingto keep up with my two jobs. i hope you understand i need to work to make a living for the family. if you ever decide to come back home, it's fine so long as you promise to leave that woman.

  i don't think you'd ever read this. you don't know how to use a computer. so there. i'm just thinking out loud, so loud that you won't hear anything from me. i'm hurting, yes. but i won't show you. i need to be strong. you're teaching me how to be strong and of course you're not aware of it. i'm still thankful you're my dad. i wouldn't be who i am today if not for you.

  i'm having a weekend. a real one.

  but i can't run because it's raining so i'll just stay home all day.

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